Hola,
I was trying hard to sleep tonight but I couldn't make it.It's 3 am now..
I closed my eyes and something came to mind about my friend, God.
"You talk to him rarely now, or it woud be good if we say, no more time for Him."
Damn, right!
Kedua mataku langsung membelalak memandang mengambang awang-awang khayalan..entah bagaimana, mungkin seperti pandangan kosong dengan kepala memikirkan-Nya dan hati berbicara.
"Hello, God! Do You miss me?
Me? I don't.
Sorry, I don't think about You this lately. When I was here going back from Jakarta last month.
I don't know why I cover my days by talking to You once, and now things changed. Something wrong with my habitual now or because I'm a damn-dumb girl now?!
Aku gak tau Tuhan, belakangan aku memang berubah, aku merasakannya. Perubahannya buruk, gak baik, maaf mengecewakan-Mu. Belakangan sepertinya aku tidak merasakan dekat dengan-Mu lagi, entah aku yang sedang tidak mengingat atau Kau yang menjauhiku..?!
Keluarga, kuliah, teman, dan hari-hari, semua kelihatan messed-up sejak kita berjarak. gak kayak dulu lagi. It's getting worse now.
So You may ask, "Do you come to me for asking my help now to make up your days?"
NO, I don't.
Really! I'm not asking or wishing you will take care or watch me from the mess. I honestly want to apologize, about my mistake of being a dumb, a heartless, a bad listener, a waster time, and I've been being a loser and so much stupidity.
See, You still there to hear me, wait for me, and You never forget me. I know it because I feel it. Feeling mustn't be wrong, must it?
Aku lelah. Baiklah, ku rasa cukup, aku hanya ingin kita seperti dulu, berbicara lebih banyak dan tidak merubah sedikit pun caraku berteman dengan-Mu. We were good friends!
Aku ingin begitu dan selamanya begitu. Titik. Ya, Titik.
Bisa kah Kau datang dan bicara padaku dalam tidurku? Mungkin aku akan merindukan-Mu. He he
Dan maafkan aku ya?
..........................."
Sedikit percakapan dengan temanku, sebenarnya mengingat-Nya karena aku sedang takut. Kalau gak ada suara kucing yang serem banget mengeong diluar, mungkin aku tidak ingat pada-Nya.
Benar-benar teman yang kurang baik, aku ini..
:(
Gotta change that bad behavior.
-Me
I was trying hard to sleep tonight but I couldn't make it.It's 3 am now..
I closed my eyes and something came to mind about my friend, God.
"You talk to him rarely now, or it woud be good if we say, no more time for Him."
Damn, right!
Kedua mataku langsung membelalak memandang mengambang awang-awang khayalan..entah bagaimana, mungkin seperti pandangan kosong dengan kepala memikirkan-Nya dan hati berbicara.
"Hello, God! Do You miss me?
Me? I don't.
Sorry, I don't think about You this lately. When I was here going back from Jakarta last month.
I don't know why I cover my days by talking to You once, and now things changed. Something wrong with my habitual now or because I'm a damn-dumb girl now?!
Aku gak tau Tuhan, belakangan aku memang berubah, aku merasakannya. Perubahannya buruk, gak baik, maaf mengecewakan-Mu. Belakangan sepertinya aku tidak merasakan dekat dengan-Mu lagi, entah aku yang sedang tidak mengingat atau Kau yang menjauhiku..?!
Keluarga, kuliah, teman, dan hari-hari, semua kelihatan messed-up sejak kita berjarak. gak kayak dulu lagi. It's getting worse now.
So You may ask, "Do you come to me for asking my help now to make up your days?"
NO, I don't.
Really! I'm not asking or wishing you will take care or watch me from the mess. I honestly want to apologize, about my mistake of being a dumb, a heartless, a bad listener, a waster time, and I've been being a loser and so much stupidity.
See, You still there to hear me, wait for me, and You never forget me. I know it because I feel it. Feeling mustn't be wrong, must it?
Aku lelah. Baiklah, ku rasa cukup, aku hanya ingin kita seperti dulu, berbicara lebih banyak dan tidak merubah sedikit pun caraku berteman dengan-Mu. We were good friends!
Aku ingin begitu dan selamanya begitu. Titik. Ya, Titik.
Bisa kah Kau datang dan bicara padaku dalam tidurku? Mungkin aku akan merindukan-Mu. He he
Dan maafkan aku ya?
..........................."
Sedikit percakapan dengan temanku, sebenarnya mengingat-Nya karena aku sedang takut. Kalau gak ada suara kucing yang serem banget mengeong diluar, mungkin aku tidak ingat pada-Nya.
Benar-benar teman yang kurang baik, aku ini..
:(
Gotta change that bad behavior.
-Me
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